Jamalyn (jamalyn) wrote,

I think I may be drowning.

Ever have that dream where try as you might, independent of the supreme amount of effort you are expelling, you can’t seem to move, walk, run, swim, whatever as fast as you desperately need to?

You know, the one where it feels like all your joints are bound by saltwater taffy. Where you feel like you are fighting to run through three and a half feet of water?

That’s how I feel, only, this isn’t a dream.

I wish I could just wake up.

I feel like the very air around me is too heavy. One atm is no longer a suitable environment for me. I don’t understand such a deep-set fatigue and I don’t understand why it has settled so suddenly on my life.

Honestly, I don’t even know if it was sudden, or if it just finally reached the point where I could not help but notice.

Every muscle in my body has been stretched until they no longer have any shape.

Sleep is the only respite I am ever offered.

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