Jamalyn (jamalyn) wrote,

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Most people have facebook for airing these kinds of rants. I don't. So you'll just have to suffer through.

I just wanna call BS on the society-based standard that not being a morning person, specifically that sleeping in, makes you lazy and a less valuable member of said society.

Hog wash, I declare. Rubbish!

I am not a morning person. This is something I have known about myself since before even entering adolescence. If I am allowed my natural sleep schedule I usually go to bed around 12:00 or 01:00 am and awake naturally between 09:30 and 10:00.

Yes, I require a minimum of 8 hours to function without feeling "fogged". To awake feeling rested and ready to take on a new day I require between 9-10 hours.

Before anyone feels the need to chirp up that they sleep <6 hours per night, I am aware that there are people out there who function well on 6 or fewer hours. I think that there are many fewer people out there who can than there are who claim they can, but they still exist (and the fact that there are so many people who [falsely] believe that requiring fewer hours of sleep than "usual" is better just goes to show you that society places a false value on this trait). They are on one end of this particular bell curve, I am on the other.

Anyway, back to my original point: If I am allowed to function in the way that makes my body feel good (i.e. sleep "late"), my energy soars, I get up with purpose and get things done, my mood improves, I eat healthier (without craving the fatty, salty and sweet foods I crave when I am sleep deprived).

Take today for instance. I am working the "evening" shift for the first time in a long time. I awoke naturally this morning and then proceeded to clean my house, do a couple loads of laundry, get the stuff together for our christmas party next week and make myself a healthy, filling breakfast that I then ate at my leisure. All before going to work, where, having been fully rested and in a good mood, I have managed everything so well that I am 100% caught up and able to goof around on livejournal with 1.5 hours still left on the shift.

This is not usually how my day goes. As the Pharmacy Operations Manager/Clinical Pharmacy Manager (How's that for a ridiculously pompous title?), I work an "ideal" schedule of 0830-1700 M-F. I haven't always worked this shift. For many years I was perfectly happy and healthy working 1330-2200 (the shift I'm working tonight). However moving further up the chain of command meant, among other things, succumbing to, as a higher-schmuck actually said to me, an "adult schedule".

So now I usually get up when my alarm clock goes off at 0700 (still not early by many people's standards), stumble into the shower, feed the cats, stuff something less than ideal down my own gullet and then race off to work so that I can be there by 0830. I then spend 8 hours doing my best to be as productive as possible, a task made harder than necessary by the fatigue and mental fog brought on by my body not chemically being where my schedule has placed it. I usually get home by 1745 or 1800, at which point I collapse mindlessly in front of the TV for a few hours before getting up and going to bed around 2100 where, again, because my circadian rhythm is not actually in sync with the life I am trying to live, I lie with my eyes closed, trying to sleep, often for several hours. When sleep does finally overtake me, it is usually so late that I've all but guaranteed a repeat of the same issue the next day.

I know what some of you are thinking: You just need to get used to your new schedule. Eventually your body will adapt.

To which I say: bull shit.

I've been working this schedule for a little over 2 years now. I've done everything I'm supposed to do. I have limited caffeine in the AM. I have limited screen time in the PM. I am careful not to give in to my natural inclinations on the weekends and sleep in/throw off my circadian rhythm.

I'd been trying so hard to do it "right" that I didn't even realize until I did it "wrong" today just what a steaming pile of BS the whole thing was.

So I'm formally calling shenanigans on the societal standard that to be happy, healthy and successful, you have to be the sort that springs out of bed at 0600 bright eyed and bushy tailed. Nor am I saying that it's better to be the sort who naturally feels better and is more productive/creative late at night. We all just "are."

So don't be so bleeping judgemental and just bleeping deal already, people!

Anyway. That was probably too long for FB. Maybe LJ was the right place for this after all *grins*

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